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Sunday, July 3, 2011

The stigma

When I was first diagnosed with bipolar back in 2009 it was like a wave washing over me. I FINALLY knew why I was the way I was. I FINALLY had an answer as to why I could go 10 days with no sleep and still function. But, no matter how good I felt having a diagnosis, I was worried about the stigma. I had always thought of bipolar people as being a little nutty, so if you feel the same way don't feel bad. I am a little nutty. LOL
Turns out I was on the wrong meds and had been given the wrong bipolar diagnosis but that is a WHOLE other scary story for a later post.
Bipolar is a chronic illness. I will have to take medication for the rest of my life and keep a constant sleep journal to assure my symptoms are at bay. It is hard because if I had diabetes people would sympathize, but because I have mental illness people want to stay away. Maybe it's all in my head. So far, I haven't lost any friendships due to this.
I can function just fine. I can work, I am an awesome mom and wife (well I do my best), I have supportive and awesome friends who have been nothing but there for me since I told them. The purpose of the is blog is to educate all of us as to what the disease is, how to live with/support someone with the disorder, and to support others who are suffering as well. I am really putting myself out there but I figure f I can help educate one person to get help, or allow one person not to feel alone in this, throwing out my pride will be worth it.

5 comments:

Mike Bollinger said...

Proud of you Babe, I know that wasn't easy.

Mike Bollinger said...

oh, and you are an awesome mom and wife :-)

Teresa Stevenson said...

I am proud of you as well. This is a great blog to talk about your life and everything that happens. As well as a great way to inform poeple and to help them understand. You are a brave and wonderful woman. I love you dearly!

The Bollinger Family said...

Thanks guys! I feel like I am coming out of the closet and it is good to know I have support from those closest to me.

Bubba said...

I think it's great you're tackling this head-on! You have nothing to be ashamed about and we love you very much!